i lied!

good morning, i mean afternoon to YOU guys. okay, remember how i said on that last post that the next time we do this, we'll have her? i lied! it's definitely hitting me now! i woke up at 4:30am (alarm was set for 5; kev was already awake) and neither of us could go back to sleep. i could tell my breathing/heart rate is a little elevated and i'm feeling a little shake-y as i write this; like how you feel when you're in a hurry and still trying to accomplish something-you know what i mean? anyway, i guess this must be what it's like when you're rightd about to give birth-not well rested, anxious and the nagging question burning in your mind...IS IT HERE YET???? ugh! still have about 11 hours to go, ugh! okay, we're gonna get up and get ready to go. just wanted to let all you people out there that were wondering "how can she be so calm?!" see that the calmness is subsiding and i'm reeeeeally starting to feel it! oh yeah, this is neat-i woke up with this song on my mind/heart: you ONC'ers will know which one i'm talking about..."He has turned my sorrow into gladness, He has turned my sorrow into joy" isn't that just like God?! He is SO awesome! oh my gosh, here it comes; i'm starting to cry thinking that 'this is theeee day that the Lord has made' and He doeth all things (very, very) well! i'm so humled to think that He chose ME to take part in His magnificant plan of adoption! ME! i'm so undeserving! but yet He chose me! not only did He adopt me; He also chose me to take part in this plan and get to experience a fraction of what He feels like when He adopts us into His family! oh my gosh! i can't believe it! we are so blessed! OKAY! now it's 'hit' and i want my baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : )