my baby boy...

okay, so i HATE being pregnant-but am oh so thankful that i had my prayers answered and was able to be pg TWICE-praise you, Lord! and so i don't necessarily love the super-newborn stage, and i reeeeally don't like what my hormones do to me for the first 3 months after i give birth, altho now i know that Zoloft helps :), and yes, i'm 35 years old, buuuuuuuuuuuuuut, are you ready for this? (mom and dad, sit down-better yet, don't read this next part)...i told kevin today that i want another baby! WHAT?! did i just say that? now let me make something clear: not anytime in the near future, and maybe i should say, "i COULD have another baby. i wouldn't mind it IF we had antoher baby." again, not in the next few years!-but i'm really loving my baby boy Ethan and i love his little-ness and cuteness and sweetness. he's turned a big corner in the last month and is such a good little dude! (i would have loved him just as much had he stayed in his 'difficult stage') but i think i'm learning how to deal better with the challenge of all these little people; and i feel much more calm and relaxed. so why not have another one? perhaps this is God preparing me for our frozen embryos-as in, one or some may 'take?' who knows? i could be wrong, maybe little Ethan is our last one (remember, kevin just had a vasectomy), and if that's God's will, i know it's right. until then, i'm going to enjoy every minute of this little baby guy and we'll just wait for His timing and His will.